While We Were Yet Sinners...

In follow-up to my previous post, I simply want to present one thought; 'but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us' (Romans 5:8). I have a sinful, illogical tendency to, in moments of shame, hide from God, and these moments portray misunderstanding of the gospel. I forget that God desires relationship with sinners, and in fact died for them. He did not die for the good, but for the wicked. He does not expect me to be perfect, but knows I fail. And it was in my shame that Christ went to the cross to die for me, it is in my sin that Jesus pursues relationship with me. Why do I think there is something I can do to make God want to disown me, when Jesus already died for the very purpose of making me His? And if I at times think that God wants nothing to do with me because of my shortcomings, does this not betray my belief that at times I am actually 'good' enough to earn the favor of the only true God? That's a little arrogant, no? God's love is a free gift, given to those who are unlovable. I too often try to earn God's favor, and when I find I can't and in reality deserve punishment, I hide. Because I sin I hide from Christ, who died so that He may bring sinners close. For some reason it is difficult, but it is key to remember that Jesus knew full well the magnitude of sin in us, and willingly paid the price to get us.